one year ago from right now...

i never could have anticipated the amazing love, awe, wonder, and delight i would know in a few hours from this moment. i have spent today staring at my little one toddling around babbling to her dolly. i have hugged her longer, and talked to her more. time is going by so quickly and it is all a bittersweet reminder to cherish every precious moment.

i remember exactly how i felt walking through the hospital doors around 7:30pm on 2.8.10.

i remember the feeling, but not the pain.

i remember the excitement i felt while it seemed like the rest of the world was sleeping.

i remember the serious moments without the worry.

i remember seeing, holding, kissing hadley for the very first time.

i remember the love because i feel it every time i look at my family.